sofiamo

I have not been here for ages: no time, no internet. Our adventure with Zelandian PhD seems mre real, than several months ago. I'm waiting for the responce about NZIDRS in Octoder and from the University in November. If everything is ok, it seems, we will leave to NZ in spring... 

I have totally no time. No time for sleep, no time for studying, no time for LJ. I’m looking forward the time when my boy will be old enough to play by his own and to sleep all night long, but I’m aware that it will not happen soon. My IELTS test is to be on 13^th of June and I hate this day already for I haven’t even made any sample test from my IELTS preparation book yet. I have to write two thesis proposals in English and two articles in Russian – it had to be dome weeks ago actually.

Oh, it is easier to give birth to one more child then to all this “scientific” staff!

Although I’m quite young, I went through many hardships a several years ago, which made my life a kind I have now. It was always difficult for me to overcome past and go ahead without remembering some sad events and situations. Only with the birth of my boy I found peace in regard to certain issues for now I have a simple answer to the questions like “Why me?” and “What for?” Carrying in mind that everything has it’s price, it is easy to find proper answers: even if I could change anything in my past I would be without my son now, and no price is to high for being a mother of such a wonderful boy!

I believe, that in every learning process the relations between student and his tutor are very important (and it is vitally important for children for a bad teacher can destroy interest in a subject totally).

I changed the sphere of research and research adviser for a number of reasons, and now I spend my time for things which are quite worthless in our country for its academicism, but my tutor is a great old man. I’m aware that he treats me much better then most of my fellows are treated by their advisers. I know him for almost 6 years and I know that he is very “artistic-minded” man and it’s really difficult to satisfy his expectations which are changing all the time but nonetheless it’s a pleasure to deal with him. The problem is in my apprehension that I’m worse then he believes of me, and I really afraid to disappoint him.

The other thing is that he reminds me my grandfather, with whom we have very tense relations unfortunately.

5 minutes surfing the LJ (search by region -NZ) and two Russians on my Friend’s Page. Russians are everywhere?!

In summer my husband brought a joke from work: one of his colleagues repeated from time to time one phrase: “cyborgs! They are everywhere!”

Therefore I can make the only conclusion that Russians and cyborgs have something in common.

P.S. Even if all zelanian LJ users are Russian I still have to write in English at least till Russian become official language in NZ.

I  believe, I can do impossible things for the sake of my boys. The first impossible issue is to enroll for my PhD with one of the NZ Universities. The second is to gain a scholarship, because there is no science without breakfast. The problem number zero, which I hope is possible, but difficult, is to get appropriate IELTS score. In order to succeed I must improve my English, especially writing skills. Therefore, I should forget my beloved Russian journal and start writing here. It is a start!